juz a quick one

i'm really bored.. nt becuz i hav nothing to do.. it's bcoz i hav lots of things to do.. weirdo huh? i duno why.. i dun hav dat urge to finish the work.. u can say dat i'm a procrastinator.. i keep on talking to myself.. nt bcoz i'm crazy.. i mean.. i encourage myself.. i talk to myself so dat i can change.. i urge myself.. i praise myself when i did sth gd.. bt.. dat's juz nt enough.. i duno why.. it'll juz b a while.. then i'll go back to my ownself again.. i hav lots of frens.. bt honestly speaking.. those who really knw me well, only a few.. five fingers are enough to count.. i hav this very gd fren.. i call him my psychologist.. why? u shld knw wad a psychologist is, rite? wad they do n stuffs.. he is juz like one for me.. though we're miles apart.. bt i dun think it is a problem to our frenship.. we talk to each other almost every nite.. he understands wad i;m goin thru.. i'm very relieved about dat.. he went thru lots of things.. much more than wad i hav went thru.. though he's only older than me by a yr, bt he has alrd went thru a lot.. coz of the environment, i think.. bt he's tough.. dat's why i said he's my psychologist..

tomoro schl start.. actually it started a week ago.. bt i was under LOA.. lots of things waitin for me to face n solve.. mybe aft wad hav happened had made me lose courage in wadeva way.. bt luckily, he's there.. dun b mistaken.. he's nt my bf.. we're only very close.. dat's all.. it may b a crap for u.. bt who cares? i dun care.. n.. who said dat we cant hav bestfren of opp sex? i hav one.. n i'm very proud if it.. lots of things waitin for me.. i know.. i know this path will b very long n tiring.. i knw i will b very weary.. i knw i may wana giv up half way.. i knw it's gona b tough.. i knw it's gona b stressful.. bt.. as long as.. i believe in myself.. i believe in him.. i believe in everything i do.. i knw i can cope with it..

all those things dat has happened had alrd happened.. juz take it as experiences.. no matter it's a gd one or bad one.. if it's a gd one, then take it as a gd memories to b remembered.. if it's a bad one, juz take it as a learning experience.. as long as i always remember, i'm considered lucky.. nothing is impossible.. let's 4gt e past.. n start a new.. start a fresh..

i really envy some parents who are very understanding of their children.. nt dat my parents are nt understanding.. no.. they are.. bt.. some parents, if their child is retain in schl, meaning cannot go to e next level, they r understanding enough to juz let it go.. although very few parents do dat.. bt at least there are some like dat.. as for my parent's case, they are understanding.. even if u gt a bad result, as long as u still can cope, u can make it to e next level, they're ok.. even if u're nt a top student.. as long as u make it to another level.. they are hepi.. bt they dun allow any retains.. once u're retained, means u hav failed.. as simple as dat.. n bcoz of dat, i hav neva been retained be4.. bt also bcoz of dat, i hav neva been a top student in my schl..

gotta go... need to do hw.. bye..