strezz siax

duno..
juz strezz..

sometimes..
very tired of doing things..
feel like having 1 day off den do wadeva i wan..
bt..
dat 1 dae neva come..
i tried having 1 dae off..
bt neva really off..
will surely hav sth suddenly on..
in e end i dun hav time 4 myself..
is it really so difficult??
juz 1 dae..
1 dae 4 me 2 relax..
do things dat i wan..

anyone of u love 2 see up to e sky??
i like it..
nt olny sky..
moon, sun, stars, trees, lands, resevoirs, sea, etc

i hav 2 wake up quite early n leave home before morning breaks..
every schl day, i'll get to enjoy a very beautiful mornig..
when i walked in e morning 2 get 2 e bus stop, i looked up..
i saw moon n stars..
very beautiful..
morning breaks be4 i reached schl..
inside e bus i'll see sun coming out slowly..
e sky was orange in colour..
at dat moment i felt like i was in e paradise..
it's too sad dat i saw it in e bus..
if iwas having recreation at e beach n watch it with someone i like..
e feeling will b totally different, rite??

all these beauty..
will soon b doom if we neva take gud care of diz earth..
go green, ppl..
dun take things 4 granted..
dun b selfish..
dun juz think of urself..
think of ur next generation..
they would also like to enjoy all these beauty..

the earth is crying for hep, cant u hear it???

-strezzd gurl-

mei's bdae..

2dae..
just gt back from batam..
i went to meet up with mei n frens 2 celebrate her bdae..
with luggage with me, there i went..

we planned 2 go 2 settler..
when we reached there, somone booked e entire settler, i think..
so..
we didnt go in..

we went to orchard..
go k box..
they wanted 2 go 4 pool..
bt then i dun wan..
i assured them dat they'll go 4 pool..
me n another fren will go shopping..
bt in e end..
we go k box..

we sang n sang n sang..

then we went 2 ayam penyet ria 2 hav dinner..
then we go home..

i hav a lot to share..
bt nt n0w..
i'll find a day..
n say it all out...

-confused-

recently very busy ar,,

these few days dun hav time 2 post blog...
no time...
busy with a lot of things..
ppl holidae is enjoying..
my holiday is..
sucks..
busying..

2dae..
hav ULP briefing..
report in full red x uniform..
e feeling when i wore e uniform.
is great..
words cant describe my feeling..

i thought it will b very tough at 1st..
bt..
at e end, i felt dat my decision 2 come 4 e training isnt wrong..
i really enjoyed it..
very much..

2dae i sick also..
wen on my way going 4 e training,
i felt very giddy..
felt like fainting in any time..
felt like throwing out..
felt like dying...
very miserable..
then i check my body temp..
it was 38.4
then 38.5
then 37.7
it goes up n down..
make me very worried..

i'm goin back 2 my hometown 2moro..
home sweet home..
wheneva i fall sick, i'll think of my home..
home is e best medicine 4 me..

here i come, my sweet home..

-sick ppl-

2dae, i cried a lot..

early in e mornig..
i cried..
my school is organizing a donation programme..
they collect donation from the stdnt in our schl..
they show us some slides of e victims, made me cried..

aft dat,
we hav harmony workshop..
learn to know more about one another..
learn not to being racist..
n many other things..

then, i went down to general office to meet up with mei..
there is a booth in front the general office, a donation box there, n a heartshape paper..
i donated in e morning..
will donate again..
then i write sth inside e heartshape paper..
i wrote in mandarin..
i didnt know how to write..
i askd my chinese fren to wrtie for me in another paper, then i copied it to my paper..
using my own handwritting..
i wrote "wo cu fu ni men. yao yong gan de huo xia qu"
i hope they can read my handwriting..

then we have chemical powered car..
duno why e car always go side ways..
e worst thing is, e vinegar always spread to my face..
damn it..

then..
just before i went home, i watched e captain's ball competition..
this time round, i didnt get hit by e ball..
e competition was very exciting!!
i admired HIM very much..
duno why..
i just admired HIM..
nt LIKE or LOVE i think..
just simply ADMIRE..

when i really want to go home, i passed e general office again..
seeing e board where they pasted all e photos of e victims..
i cried again..
seeing all e children's dead body..
really ache my heart..
the children..
they had just begun their journey, yet they had to leave so soon..
mothers protect their children from e falling objects with their own bodies..
teachers only cared to asked e stdnts to leave e schl as soon as possible..
soldiers only cared to rescue e victims as fast as they could..
yet..
they died..

we don't know what will happen next..
do ppl in sichuan know dat they'll face such a disaster??
no, they don't..
if they do, they will nt send their children to e schl..
n would bring their families to a safer place..

but we don't know anything..
so, live ur life to e fullest..
cherish ur life..
dun take ppl around u for granted..
we dun know wad will happen in e next minute..
we may nt be around anymore..
or we may have lost someone close to us..

-crying baby-

weird siax...

2dae..
need to arrive at schl quite early.
help out the tcr for the post exams activities..

aft helping out, we did water rocket..
we consructed water rocket, then fly it up high..
although my rocket was nt e furthest..
bt i really enjoyed e process of constructing it..

aft dat, i represent my house (not e house that u live in)
it's some kind of grouping in our schl..
we are divided into 4 groups, wad we so called house..
consist of all e levels from sec 1s to 5s..
elbrus house, vinson house, everest house, kilimanjaro house..
i'm from vinson house..
i represent my house to play short put..
2day, we compete with e other houses..
i came in 2nd..
quite disappointing, bt my result wasn't very disappointing, tough..

then just before we went home..
we went to see the captain's ball competition..
i was quite unlucky, i think..
there was 1 group there who was practicing with e ball.
they anyhow throw..
then..
e ball hit my head..
omg!
at first e boy didnt want to admit nor say sorry..
then, e tcr merely said "boys, be a manwhale"
then e boy say sorry while i was facing back..
then e tcr said, "go n ask her name n say sorry face to face"
then he came to my present n ask "wad is ur name"
if u were at e scene, u'l burst to laughter like i did..
his expression was very funny..
i burst into laughter n walk away..
then he told e tcr "cher, she just smile n walk off"
i dun noe wad e tcr said to him, wad i now was he came after me..
shouting my name n say sorry..
i merely tilt my head..
bt didnt say anything..
he kept on saying sorry until i say nvm..
he is a gentleman...
at first i thougth dat he is someone very bad..
nt gentleman, etc..
bt these days, i seem 2 be seeing him in another angle..
he is actually a gentleman who love his parents very much..
how i know?
i just know..
hahas...

2dae..
wad i wana tell u is..
try to see hings from different angles..
u may be surprised dat actually things aren't wad u think of..
n u may b nt as stressful as u did..

-just merely me-

so fun!!!

2dae cip work so fun!!
it's very tiring..
bt very fun..
distributing the packs 2 e needy
really nice..
we still hav time to take pictures during brekas..
hehe.
u wana c e pics?
go 2 ms-faking.blogspot.com
i'm sure dat there r a lot of pics down there..

aft dat..
we meet up with vivian..
doing e chemical powered car thingy..
end up mei went home, vivian came 2 my house..
vivian complaint dat she hungry..
askd me 2 cook bee hoon 4 her..
c her so pathetic..
i cook lor..
then i give her medicine..
she had sorethroat..
when we finished..
she steal my bee hoon home..
she said for dinner..
then i leave it..
then..
she steal my psp home!
hikz..
so i wun hav psp 4 2 days..
sad siax..

dat's all 4 2dae..
actually there is sth inside my heart..
bt i dun wan 2 many ppl 2 noe it.. :p

-enjoyed commoner-

so long neva blogging again..

these 1 week
very busy..
on monday, aft school i hav NCO training.
quite tough.. very tiring also..

on tue, we went to sentosa to see how is our tree growing..
to our dismay, 2 died, we're trying to make it alive again..
then we plucked out all e irritating grasses..

on wed, we have rehearsal for internationa frenship day on fri
e real date is 11 april, bt we celebrate it during post exam activities..

on thur, we hav rehearsal again. aft rehearsal, i suddenly rememer dat i hav javelin competition
so i hurriedly run to the field, luckily i could make it.

on fri, there our performance went..
it was a bit messy, bt they said dat it was ok.
aft schl, i hav red x..
training halfway the tcr askd us 2 do cip..
give out e pamphlets from block to block, house to house..
very tiring..

on sat, we have cip again..
very2 tiring..
aft cip, me n mei went to mcd house..
meet up with vivian to do chemical powered car research n design..
then mei's parents were coming to spore..
so i accompanied her to go n fetch her parents..
we went to hav dinner together..
i became miss my parents..
when i was on my way home, i kept on thinking, wad would my life like
if i hadnt come to spore to study?
i'm really curious..

2day, me n vivian went to jakeh's house..
it's damn far from e bus stop..
aft reach there, we went inside e room..
starting 2 do e powerpoint slides..
jakeh only cared about his computer memory card,
wei han cared about his mp3,
onli me n vivian were thinking..
aft sometime..
i felt very tired..
vivian do the rest..
jakeh n wei han busying with e computers..
then i decided 2 lie on jakeh's bed, to rest for a while..
i fell asleep.
really fell asleep..
then vivian come n wake me up..
"wake up! u so nice! can sleep, then i'm e one who do"
hahas..
i was really very tired..
i woke up
then
we went to clarke quay..
vivian n hernah said they wana ask about work..
reach there, e office was closed..
we didnt know dat 2 dae is public hol, so only open a while..
stupid erwin neva tell us..
hahas..

so tired siax..
i wana sleep liau..
nitex..

why am i so careless???

i'm always very careless...
not only when i'm doing maths..
bt also in my life..
i always lost my things.
wallet, ez link, hp..
just name 1..
most slightly i had lost it be4..

nt only in losing valuables..
i'm also very carelez on my ownself..
i fell sick very easily..
i often hav gastric pain, jus becuz i didnt eat regularly..
3 days ago, i sprained my elbow..
e pain was excruciating!
2dae, i felt better, only a bit tired on e elbow..
bt... i sprained my ankle on e same day..
i fell down n sprained it.
i couldnt stand properly at 1st..
i couldnt even move it..
then slowly.
i tried 2 move it..
i turned it around n around..
aft a few minutes, i can walk..
bt at e end of e day..
i suddenly feel e pain again..
until now, e pain is still there.
in fact, i suspect dat it get worsen..

i cant even take good care of myself..
how am i goin 2 take care of other ppl??
i said dat i wana help ppl around me, bt now is e other way round..
am i uselez??
i dun wan my family 2 b worried bout me..
i wana show them dat i can take care of myself
so dat they dun worry..
bt i cant..
i'm really vey uselezz..
who in e world is as careless as me?
cant even take good care of him/herself??
i bet i'm the only one..
yes they are, bt they r children, nt a teenager like me..

^careless queen^

i met him again

if i was not wrong.
i met him again.
can u guess who?
u must be thinking he is someone of my age.
u're wrong.

i met him for e 1st time was aft artsnight in our school.
i volunteered 2 become waitrez on dat day.
aft e artsnight, we went home.
we waited for 965 at e usual bus stop.
"anyody wants to go to e mrt station? hello... anybody?"
i was curious who was e one asking.
when i turned around, i saw 2 men.
i saw them, bt they didnt see me. in fact, they cant c everybody.
1 woman approached them, ask if they nid any help.
one of e man asked e woman if she was goin 2 e mrt station, his fren, wanted to go there.
dat woman lead him 2 e mrt station.
left him alone. he didnt ask for any more help.
i approached him.
"which bus are u taking?" i asked
"can u held me a taxi?"
of corz i said yes.
i found a taxi 4 him, aft saying thank you, he board e taxi n lead home.

i saw him again. in fact, i heard him before i saw him.
e same as e 1st time i met him.
e familiar voice.
i was on 965, i board e bus before him.
"good morning. going to yishun mrt station? thank you"
it was very crowded this morning.
no more seats left.
one girl, she gave out her seat to him
i was standing behind him.
when it reached khatib, i can feel that he was a bit worried.
worried dat he might miss e stops.
when it was 2 stops from his destination, he asked e ppl sitting around him
"is it yishun yet?" my fren who was sitting in fron of him, couldnt hear it properly.
i could hear it clearly, cuz i was observing him from e moment he sat on dat seat.
"2 more stops" i said.
"i'll inform u when it reached" i added
"thank u so much" he replied
when it reached, i told him.
he said thank u once again n alight e bus.

i admired his courage.
living in e darkness is sth very horrible.
yet he tried nt to b very reliant on ppl around him.
he will only ask for direction, bt he didnt ask ppl 2 lead him there.
he is very brave.
to b able 2 overcome e fear of walking alone nt knowing wad will happen next.
although he couldnt c, bt he didnt give his life up.
he atill live his life to e fullest.
i can sense it.

i had learnt sth from him, had u?
i hope he will b blessed with happinezz..
may God bless him always..

^Reni^

long time neva blogging...

very long beva blogging alrd...
busying with exams lately n some other stuffs...
wait till i hav settled down..
i'll post blog everydae, k?
2dae, i went 2 e library 2 study a maths..
we went 2 houngang 1st be4 hand..
then we took bus no 72 to yio chu kang.
when alighting, i saw a granny..
she seemed 2 hav a lot of difficulties just to alight from e bus..
i went n help her..
she continuously say thnx 2 me n e other boy (i dunno him) who also came 2 help her..
yesterday, i give away my seat to a granny also.
one of my fren said that i'm a kindhearted girl..
am i?
i'm juz doing wad i ought to..
i believe dat wad goes around comes around..
if she had difficulties alighting, i believe i'll also hav it when i'm old..
i help her now, when i'm old later, there will also ppl 2 help me..

regards,
Reni