pissed of at 1st.. hepi in e end..

nothing special had happened in e morning earlier..
juz right aft recess.. damn it..
YOU! u better b reading this now!!
u shld know who u are if u read this..
u.. i duno wad e hell wrong is with u..
ur mood swing is worse than a gurl!
u were fine e day be4.. can joke very happily..
bt then 2dae.. i think u ate e wrong medicine, rite??
or u havnt eat ur medicine at all??
suddenly become so cold..
wad e.. i was being nice to ask u wad had happened..
bt u juz ignore it like dat..
fine.. juz take it as i was being too nosy..
bt then aft a while, aft schl..
u changed again.. ask me whether i angry with u..
yes.. i was angry with u.. and i "am still" angry with and "will still" angry with u..
juz wana let u feel wad it is like to b ignored..
i hate dat feeling, u know!
i thought dat we can b so called gd fren..
u even regard me as ur sis..
bt.. ugh.. u better b reading this now..
n scram as far as possible when u see me..
or i'll treat u very coldly.. till u can take it..
i'm nt tryin 2 b very mean.. u wun know how i felt..

let's drop e subject..
aft schl, i went to aunt ani's house with my fren..
also left our bags n all dat in her house..
we havin cross country 2dae..
glad dat i dun need to run..
hahas.. i was on duty..
bcoz i'm a certified first aider!!
hahas.. i was e overall in charge..
at 1st i thought.. waa...
so far dun hav any casualties..
a good sign.. bt then..
juz a minute aft i thought of dat, omg..
a lot of them fainting, dizzy, cant breath properly n stuffs..
suddenly become very busy n as well as stressful..
luckily e rest of e 1st aiders are very cooperative..
they dun need me to worry about other station..
i can really let them do everything by themselves..
i juz concentrate on treating e casualty in e 1st aid base..
we dun hav enuff 1st aiders..
luckily our schl prepared ambulance be4 hand..
e nurses also came down to help us..
there was 1 casualty who was very serious..
until we need to use stretcher to carry him..
he couldnt walk.. n feel like sleeping..
we cant let him fall asleep..
bad, right?
hahas.. bt we really cant do dat..
so we keep on talking to him.. distract him..
bt in e end, he still fell sleep..
lol.. bt e nurses said.. it's ok alrd.. can let him rest ler..
he is more stabilised now.. so we let it be..

aft e whole thing, here come e giving prize presentation..
iall e 1st aiders were allowed to go 2 their own house 4 e cheering part..
i was also e song leader.. so i sat in e front..
aft e cheer, when giving out e prize, suddenly ms.chua pulled me out n ask me to help to giv out e prise..
as in, i'm nt e one who giv it to e winners la.. bt i passed it to 1 tcr, then e tcr pass it 2 e GOH or VIP, then they giv out lo..
e cheering competition..
YEAH!! VINSON won!!!! hahas..
last yr EVEREST won e cheering part..
this year, vinson won e cheering part as well as e CHAMPION house for cross country..
vinson had won 3 yrs in a row.. or more... i think 3 la..
or i 4gt.. hahas.. yeah!! vinson neva failed to imprss all e tcr!
lol.. we nt only gd in sport, bt also in cheering!! hahas..
all those shouting of cheerings trhough ourlungs, isnt wasted at all..
hahas... i kinda lost my voice aft e cheering.. my throat very painful..
bt now is ok alrd.. hahas.. luckily..

so, overall..
i had learnt to take such a big responsibility 2dae..
being an overall in charge isnt easy, i hav 2 admit dat..
bt.. when we move as a team.. all those are nothing..
thnx to my helpful, reliable n considerate juniors..
i dun hav to worry too much.. they are very cooperative..
without e help of them, i think i will b very stressed ba! hahas..
special thnx to: ms.lee, thank u 4 trusting me n put me in charge of such a big responsibility..
Nabil, Tisha, Marissa, Audrey, Liling, Hazwan, Sofeah, Nadzirah, Haikal and last bt nt least, Aini..
some of them are my juniors.. Nadzirah is same level as me.. Haikal is our senior..
thnx to them.. really..

gtg now.. overall, 2dae nt dat bad though.. :D

awesome!!!

wow... it was like "last year" since i update my blog..
hahas... mei.. i update liao.. haha.. i dun think u check my blog nowadays liao.. haha..
let's see when u realise it, k...
hmm...
lots of thoughts n feelings wana throw it out..
bt.. nt now.. i need time to settle down..
i duno wad on earth am i doin..
keep on settling down...
from start of 2009..
havnt settled enuff.. haha...
honestly speaking.. it was a very tiring for e start of e year..
i duno... i found dat i have lots of things to catch up..
is it becoz i had slow down my pace somehow??
i duno.. i'm really tired.. lots of camps.. actually only 2 camps..
bt it's all within 2 weeks.. so very tiring..
have lots of sleepless nites.. woke up late.. i duno wad's goin on with me recently..
bt it's terrible.. i read my horoscope.. n it says dat everything will b fine..
everything will b goin quite smoothly this year..
but why is it dat i felt e opposite??
nt really e opposite.. everything did go on smoothly.. too smooth unitl i felt very hard catching up??
wad a lame excuse.. my parents bringing me on a 4 days 3 nitex cruise.. from 25-28..
i hoped dat i really can relax myself during dat 4D3N..

for this 2009, i know it wouldnt b an easy route for me..
o'lvl this year.. need to strive hard.. to achieve my commitments..
bt i'm afraid dat i'll giv up half way.. i'm finding it more n more tougher each day..
how i wish candice, leroy n pamela is still there..

-confused-

in batam..

1st time blogging in batam...
nt very comfortable..
coz e keypad..
haha
nt used to it..
keep on typo error..

finally..
back in batam..
happy..
of corz..
bt become very lazy liao..
i brought back my books n hw..
bt havnt touch it till now..
hav been playin n relaxing...
haha..

finally..
i found my long lost fren..
all e misunderstanding btwn us has been solved..
i lost contact of him is bcoz he lost his handphone..
so he couldnt contact me to tell me his new number..
he also moved to a new environment..
dat's why when i tried to call to his house i couldnt reach..
at 1st i thought he didnt want a fren like me anymore..
bt then..
haha.. i think too much ba..
he still as frenly as before..
he still treat me as fren la..
quite happy.. at last..
i found him..
i found back a "brother"
i found back a pair of ear to hear my complaints
i found back a fren..
i found back a mirror..
he is really very kind..
very dote on me as well..
dote as in he wun complaint even if i'm rude to him..
he has gt a gf.. so u dun think too much a..
haha..
yeah... this time round come back, really gt a very big "income"
haha...

go out with frens... n all..
having fun so far..
e only thing i dun like is..
e transportation..
need to wait for sb to come n pick me up..
haiz... wana learn how to drive..
haha..
bt then nt now ba.. wait wait n wait..

hmm...
nothin more to say liao..
i waitin them (my frens) to stop playin audition..
coz i wana go home a..
k la..
nothin more to update..
must miss me horh...
bubuai....

juz back from e camp!!

yeah!! juz had my 4 days 3 nites camp..
this camp quite special..
coz.. this is e 1st time i attend red cross camp as a NCO!!
last few times, i attended it as a cadet..
bt this time round, we, e seniors who are e one who organise e camp..

1st day of camp..
arrived in schl in e morning..
realise dat i 4gt 2 bring my full u along..
hurriedly call mei.. ask whether she can help me take my full u 2 e schl since she is coming e schl 4 remedial also..
luckily she can make it.. thnx 2 her siax..
aft dat.. vivian help me buy poncho..
bt then mei met vivian otw.. so they bought it together..
n mc.d breakfast 4 me..
so sweet of them.. :))
af meeting with them, i get excuse from e chairman 2 go 4 my remedial as well..
this camp very busy..
coz need 2 go for lesson in e morning, then join them back aft e lesson..
so.. aft lesson, went to join them..
hav outdoor cooking 4 lunch..
although nt really ful.. bt.. can la.. haha..
then.. nothing much..
at night we hav catered food 4 dinner..
aft dat we hav scavangent hunt.. honestly..
it was nt well organised.. bt.. i knew e game ic tried her best..
she was doing it all herself..
so.. i believed e cadets understand that..
then we had our supper.. the cadets all praised e f&b ICs 4 e milo..
the milo was great!! hahas.. gd job, f&b IC!!
aft dat.. e cadets went to bath n had their lights out at 12..
we, e NCOs would nt sleep earlier than e cadets..
when they lights out, we went to bath.. then, we had our lights out at 1.30..

2nd day, woke up early in e morning, had PT..
then had our breakfast.. again.. e f&b never fails to surprise us with their yummy breakfast!! haha.. then i didnt go 4 e lesson.. i was excuse.. bcoz i need to go 4 trekking with them..
only 5 NCOs attended it.. e rest of e NCOs hav lesson.. cant excuse so many of them..
bt then 3 of our seniors joined us.. so.. manpower doesnt really is e problem..
aft dat..
yeah!!! we set off 4 e trekking!!
hahas..
it was a 7km++ walk in e mc. Ritchie..
along e way.. of corz.. muddy.. slippery.. a lot of stones.. high slope.. n all that..
bt.. Red x cadets all very strong!!! they persevere all e way!! yeah!!
they are e strongest cadets ever!!
hahas...
along e way.. i encouraged them to move on n dun giv up..
kept on telling them that they had done a great job n all stuffs..
then when we came back.. 1st thing we did is TO HAV OUR LUNCH!!! haha..
afr lunch, the cadets were given time to wash up n gather at e canteen..
as 4 me, i lazy la.. very tired.. so i juz laid down on e canteen bench n wait 4 thei return..
aft dat.. nothing special.. our dinner, we had outdoor cooking competition!!
haha.. e can food that e cadets brought.. alll very yummy one..
then.. so sweet of e cadets.. actually spare us, e NCOs their food..
we hav our own food as well.. they wana us to taste their food..
aft dat.. as usual.. nothing special as well.. everything going on as usual..
then had our supper.. f&b IC.. still e best.. lol..
aft dat.. bathe n everything.. lights out at 12..
thought we would hav a peaceful night.. bt we hav firedrill at 2 am..
damn..
then.. gt casualty la.. bt fake casualty.. then evacuate lo..
n all stufs..
then went back to e bunk..
straight away fell asleep..
e next morning nearly overslept..

3rd day,
let's skip ba.. until at night..
e campfire..
i was suddenly asked to bcome e emcee..
1st time bcome emcee..
very nervous..
when e campfire started.. we couldnt really high e audience up..
felt very bad.. we need to shout.. bcoz e mic doesnt really work out well..
aft shouting 4 half of e campfire.. i couldnt make it anymore..
my throat hurt like hell..
before dat i was alrd coughing.. since e 1st day of camp..
then af shouting make it even worse..
in e end, regina took over.. felt so sorry 4 her..
aft dat.. our seniors who came back to join our campfire also help us a lot..
they came up with a performance n try to high e audience up..
aft dat.. campfire over..
then..
it's nt over juz like dat..
e NCOs were asked to stay back while e cadets go n bathe..
our ex chair, andrew, spoke to us..
hmm.. then.. i wun elaborate more liao lo..
coz it's our red cross affair..
lol..

aft dat..
last day.. during breakfast, we received a big surprise from e juniors..
they came up with a song jus for us, e NCOs..
i cant rmmbr e lyrics.. bt it was about.. they say sorry 4 all e problem they had created..
n we are e dearest NCOs.. sth like dat..
i think they were doing that bcoz of wad happend aft e campfire last night..
felt quite bad to hav made them worried for wad had happened..
we also came up with a song 4 them..
it goes like this:

i love u, u love me
we are Red Cross family
no matter what you've done
we won't keep in mind
we love u from all our hearts..
by: Reni (me) n Ribka

aft dat..
had our promotion ceremony..
yeah.. i was promoted from sergeant to staff sergeant..
then aft cleaning up, we hav some sorts of prize giving time..
when the chair asked who is e best NCO, one of them shouted f&b ic.. bt then..
duno wad happened, they suddenly raised their hands one by one n shouted Reni ma'am..
omg.. i was so touched!! i didnt expect them to b so "in one"
thnx to them so much.. actually e prise means nothing to me..
bt e assurance dat they had given me.. it meant a lot 4 me..
then, break camp.. went home..
took taxi home..
gt e mercedes one.. lol..
then..
when reach home.. straight away went inside my room..
my bed is e most comfortable thing!! haha..
slept for 16 hours ystrdy..
nt enough to replenish yet..
bt will still continue to replenish..
haha..

i hav learnt a lot of things from e camp..
i hav learnt how to tekker of my cadets..
helped them when they needed it most..
throughout e camp.. although sth happened..
bt truly.. my juniors all helped me 2 keep goin..
i loved them very much..
really.. i've gained their trust..
i was so happy.. although e camp was very tiring..
bt they made me 4gt all e tiredness..
really.. i meant it..
2 of my cadets fell ill on e 3rd day..
i was very worried..
1 of them hav fever.. i ran here n there to get iced water n borrowed small towel so that i can put iced towel on her forehead.. trin to reduce her temperature..
although it works, bt still, she was sent home n were asked 2 see doctor..
at 1st she didnt want.. she said whe wana attend e campfire n e promotion ceremony..
bt aft some persuasion.. she agreed to go..
the other junior.. didnt had a fever..
i think she was stressed bcoz sth happend..
n.. she was emotionally unstable..
i ran here n there to try n get her warm water..
tried to calm her down..
she went into e bunk.. n hav a nap..
aft dat she woke up.. our tcr in charge ask her 2 go home n hav a rest..
bt she refused.. she go all her might to stay..
she called her parents.. assure dat she is okay n all stuffs..
in e end.. she can stay!! i felt happy 4 her..
during e camp. i was juz like e big sister of my cadets..
i went all my might to protect them..
even if sometimes i need to sacrifice sth.. i would also do dat..
tell u a secret.. i even went into arguement with someone juz to protect my cadets..

cadets.. although i know u may nt read this post.. bt there are things dat i wana let u all know..

i love u all from e deepest of my heart..
i wun let any hurts to come close to you..
u guys are wonderful.. awesome..
as wad i hav told u.. all of u are my strongest cadets!
nobody can beat u guys..
nothing can b compared to ur perseverance..
even if everything in e world go against u guys..
i hope u'll know dat i'll always by ur side..
i'm happy when u guys are happy..
n i'm sad when u guys are sad too..
i'm glad to know dat u guys love us as well..
all of these.. made us know dat..
all our sweats, tears n sacrifices are worth it..
thank you so much..
remember dat we are always e RED CROSS FAMILY!!
all of u hav to tekker!!

by: ur dearest NCO, Reni
to: my dearest n strongest cadets of 2008!!

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7.11.08

today.. went to cineleisure..
juz for k boxing.. lol..
although my voice quite sexy.. bt still can sing lo..
haha..
sth hapened today.. bt dun wish to recall it anymore..
coz i was very upset bcoz of dat..
then.. went home..
yeah..
nothing special..
k la..
let's call it a day..
bye..

damn tired!!!

this holiday damn tiring!! duno why...
bt vey tired!!! holiday still need to go back to schl hav extended curriculum..
this whole week will b very2 de busy...
tomoro onwards i will hav standard 1st aid course..
e course is e whole day one..
1,2 n 8
tomoro, which is 1st nov, 1st aid course from 9 to 6..
2nd nov, 1st aid course again.. same timing..
3rd-6noov having red x camp..
7 nov need go sentosa.. nt to play.. bt to present our report..
8 nov hav 1st aid course again.. same timing..
9 nov-- finally... OFF DAY!!!! hahas..
10 nov got NYAA in schl..
then from 11-14, so far nothing..
hope really nothing a.. i dun wan last minute then gt sth on..
let me off plis!!!!
then 15 nov i hav 1st aid competition.. hope will win lor...
aft dat... FREE!!!!!!!!!!! haha...
hope will really b freed..
hmm...
shall call it a day ba..
2moro still need wake up early..
bye..

yeah.. i'm back aft several weeks. lol.

juz came back from batam..
yeah.. had a nice vacation in my Sw!t hOm3!!
e party on e 25 oct went on smoothly..
one thing dat i had expcted..
my mum's frens will ask "why hav u become darker now??" or "did u go on a diet? u had slim down a bit" n so on...
yeah.. i had become darker bcoz of e camp.. n it's like burning..
bt.. i did nt go on diet lar.. i exercise.. i still eat food dat i like.. u can ask mei..
she always said "control, ren.. control" lol..
bt i juz couldnt..
i mean.. why must we stop us from eating e food dat we like?
moreover, we didnt eat it everyday.. so i dun find e reason why we should avoid eating e food dat we like..
as long as we excercise regularly.. why nt?

yeah.. then.. sunday stay at home e whole day.. bt nt dat boring though..
coz i get to watch drama series.. n talk with my mum..

then.. on monday.. i went for facial with my mum..
nice.... coz during e facial, they also helpo 2 massage..
then aft facial, when we were waiting 4 y dad to fetch us,
the boss told me this "u hav become darker, huh? e last time i saw u u were quite fair. u should go 4 lulur (i also duno how 2 say in english) or go 4 milk bathing"
yeah.. yeah.. everybody said i had become darker.. so??
haiz...
then, my dad came to fetch us.. i said i wana go Ray's place to cut my hair..
he said ok..
so we went there lo.
he was eating..
so wait 4 a while..
then when he came..
i expect him 2 say i had become darker, u know...
bt then.. he didnt said anything..
relieve.. at least.. dat was e place where nobody comments dat i had become darker..
lol..
aft cutting hair.. my father brought me to see piano..
went round n round.. finally landed in My Piano..
i caught my eye on e yamaha piano..
$3000 ley.. alamak.. second hand some more..
bt then.. nice er.. e sound... omg...
my dad also said.. e black yamaha one.. quite nice...
very elegant..
yeah.. true.. e price also veri elegant.. lol.. bt e price of piano is around dat lor..
my dad ask whether i really like it..
i must say no lor.. then he said.. tell him when i changed my mind..
omg... i really like it!! bt... if i buy it there.. wad's e point?
i cant play it often also..
then i tell him.. i wana buy e one in sgp.. digital piano..
although nt as elegant as e black yamaha lar.. hikz..
bt then.. nt bad also lar..
then he said ok lor.. he'll come on thurs or fri..
so we'll go see together.. must say gdbye 2 e black yamaha liao..
haha..
then went home..
met up with my big sis..
aft dat went out again.. went to kfc.. eat with my loveliest cousin, Ying Ying!!
i promised her to treat he kfc when i came back later..
af dat me n my big sis met up with her frens.. the we went to catch movie at mega mall..
we watched "one night with e king" honestly speaking.. i dun really know wad's going on..
lol..
i understand wad it is saying.. bt.. i duno.. i find dat some parts of e movie is being cut off..
the we headed back home.. monday was e most busiest day during my stay lor..

then finally, today.. juz stay at home.. hmm.. did go to e wet market with my mum.. dat's all lo..
then in e afternoon need 2 head back 2 sg liao lor..
vivian joined me.. the ferry damn slow!!!! 1 n half an hour then reach le!!!
crazy.. made me feel very lazy liao..
i was thinking of coming back earlier.. slowly prepare.. then had a gd night sleep..
haiz.. in e end cannot..
ohya.. btw.. during my stay of 3 days, i slept 4 more than 12 hours a day ler..
haha.. envy ba?? hehe.. kidink.. bt really damn nice..
all e sleepless nights in sgp, all earned back liao..
haha..
k la..
let's call it a day ba..
bye..

hao jiu bu jian!!!!

lol..
hav nt been updating siax..
i was busying with exam..
then aft exam straight away gt camp..
i intended to update dat night aft camp..
bt then coz i was too tired..
so didnt make it..
haha..

e camp was quite fun, actually..
it's a kayak course camp..
we learnt how to kayak in e camp..
yeah..
e one dat i find e most difficult thing is to capsize..
lol..
we were to capsize ourselves..
then tap 3 times before we can go out of e capsized kayak..
i can capsize..
bt then it's either i 4gt to tap, or i 4gt to hold on to e paddle..
those who went 4 e course will know wad i mean ba..
haha...
a lot of things happened..
unhappy things, happy things..
all sorts..
bt it's quite fun though..
it is tiring, bt it is expected ba..
i was alrd mentally prepared be4 i went 4 e camp..
i juz hope, all these wun b wasted lo..
although i knew that 4 me passing this course is unlikely..
bt... yeah. i duno.. juz hope..

3 days being drenched by rain in e camp..
haha..
it has been 4 ages since i play with rain water..
i mean.. u really stay under e rain for hours..
e last time was probably around 6 years ago ba..
when i was still in primary schl..
af dat..
since i move to batam.. no more playing with rain water..
my parents dun really allow..
hey.. it's making sense ba..
when u tell ur parents u wana stay under rain water for hours,
will they allow??
obviously no..
moreover.. aft dat incident... i doubt they'll allow lo..
dat incident caused me suffer a lot..
went to see 4 docs, bt to no avail..
in e end, e last doc advise my parents to bring me to mt.elisabeth..
then.. being warded lo..
it was a history 4 me alrd.. haha..
haiya.. why rake it up?? lol..
anyway..
let's get back to e camp thingy..
then aft being drenched by rain for 3 days respectively..
when came back from camp..
np, actually before we came back i alrd caught a cold..
e last night at camp, when i was sleeping..
i was trembling very seriously..
no jacket, no extra clothes to cover myself.. nothing..
jacket was wet bcoz of an incident..

must really thnx to mei lor..
i told e other fren who was awake dat i was trembling..
i didnt expect mei to hear me..
i thought she was deeply asleep..
bt then she suddenly wake up n said "hah? cold hah? nah (pass me e jacket she was wearing)"
then she went back to sleep..
haha..
thnx to her n her jacket, at least. it provides me with a bit of warmth..

bcoz of dat, i couldnt go back to schl e next day.,.
haha.. caught a flu lo.. then coughing.. sneezing all e time..
really very terrible.. so didnt go to schl..
e next day also didnt go..
so in total, 2 days didnt go 2 schl..
coop in e room all e time.. lying on my bed..
watchingdeo, sleeping, reading, chatting in msn, listening to songs..
thought aft stay in e house for 2 days, today i wana go out 4 some fresh air a..
bt then.. somehow it was cancelled..
so 2dae i didnt go out again.. 3 days being cooped in e house..

tomoro, will surely go out!!! haha...
go out buy some facial stuff..
bcoz of e camp, my face very dry le..
nt only my face a.. my skin which was exposed to e sun is like burnt liau..
haha..
e colour onli la..
when i compare my hands colour to my stomach's colour, it was like "kopi susu" liao..
e colour really very different..
must do sth about this a..
this 25th, there'll b a party in batam..
it was actually my mum n her frens organise one..
all our family members will attend..
if i were to attend it in e situation like now,
omg.. i duno wad will happen to me liao..
lol.. hmm... nothing more 2 say le..
will update again ba..
bye..